I went to where the carriages where, and as it turns out, word of what happened this morning had already spread. Many of the adventurers praised me for my efforts, and there were even some who let me ride first, saying I must’ve been tired.
On the way back home, I thought back to what happened this afternoon.
I don’t regret defeating Sacchi and his gang, but I was pissed off before I responded with violence. I know the situation called for a beating, but I wonder if the real reason I beat them was because I was pissed. I don’t know, but I can’t deny the possibility.
Am I a child? No. My body may be that of a child’s, but I’m already a 42 year-old uncle. I’m an adult who’s supposed to be able to think rationally.
Will I hit someone because I don’t like them? Will I hit someone just because they picked a fight with me? …In that case, I’m no different from those delinquent adventurers.
My strength and my techniques are fine, but my mind isn’t right.
…Since coming to this world, nothing’s really changed. I isolated myself within the forest, avoiding humans because I didn’t like them in my previous life, and from then on, I’ve always been alone… At least, until I met Reinhart-san and the others.
If I hadn’t met them, I would’ve lived my whole life in the whole forest. They’ve been taking care of me since our meeting. They gave me a bed to sleep on, cooked food for me, and welcomed me warmly… Am I starting to be spoiled by them?
Looking back on what I’ve done since coming to this world, I’ve done nothing but run away from the things I hated and without toiling for anything just played around while being spoiled by the duke’s family………………………This can’t continue. At this rate, I’ll turn into a no good adult. After all, you can’t call a person who’s only good at using reckless violence a good person.
I’m grateful to the duke and his family, but I have to leave them. I’ll start training myself again. I can’t keep depending on them. I have to stand on my own feet.
I’ve thought countless times how I should thank them, but with how much they’ve given to me, the very thought alone is shameless.
I thought of such things until I got back to town.
Tl Note: There’s another chapter part after this. Together they add up into something about as long as the chapter part yesterday.